Quirks eh?
well, for starts, I personally think I’m too short. I know I shouldn’t care, and that “I should love myself for who I am”, but I dunno, I personally feel I am at a disadvantage to many things because of my size.
Also, the size of my hands bug me… it’s difficult to play the guitar sometimes, because my fingers are short. This irritates me because I love playing the guitar.
I don’t really talk to myself, but I have conversations with myself in my head sometimes, and sometimes I think I am too quiet, and I become too dissasociated from the outside world. I also have difficulty in keeping a clear mind; it’s always cluttered with thoughts here, thoughts there, sometimes ideas, or even things people said, stick with me for a long time, which can be annoying.
My imagination is pretty vivid, which I think is a good thing, because it adds to creativity, however sometimes I get too cought up in it, and I can imagine totally bizarre, or even realistic, scenerios, and then I even try to solve them, even though they’re fictional. I sometimes worry that I might not be able to realize they’re fictional and start to believe these imaginary things are real.
Start last August, I’ve had the odd anxiety attack here and there. My hearts start racing, I hear things that aren’t there(like I really hear them, not just “oh I think I heard something” it’s like “shit that’s really making a weird noise”) and things start too look either cartoonish or evil. My mom says she has the same problem(well, the anxiety thing in general), so I think it might be genetic, or have something to do with some mental illness.
I can be very paranoid at times, and start to worry about random things, things that wouldn’t normally worry me.
And last but not least, I have bizarre mood swings, where I can be feeling fine one moment, and then the next I’m horribly depressed or angry.
While all these bug me, I’m not exactly embarassed by them, and a lot of them I’ve learned to live with.
*edit: oh, and I also kind of shake once in a while… like uncontrollable shivering almost. I don’t know if I’ve had this my whole life or not, but I noticed it sometime around last year. I have no idea what causes it, but most of the time I think it might just be that I’m cold, even though I’m wearing a coat in september.