I think my half-relationship is going well. I’ve made a lot of improvement since my last posts about my soon-to-be girlfriend. Anyways:
We have this bullshit filler class during first period in school (TAP?), and we really just discuss our weekends, and any breakthroughs we’ve noticed in our lives which no one really gives a fuck about, for about a half an hour. People spends this time really to socialize with one another, away from the group. So, she confronted me, and said, plainly, that she stopped cutting herself since she’s met me (this wasn’t said out of the blue, but the conversation led onto this somehow), and, yeah. Horjay for not cutting yourself!
The whole school had to get some vaccination done today, due to the recent discovery of Meningitis-C. We got in groups, and both her and I were in some group with other people. When she went up, she called me over, and asked me to hold her hand, 'cause she said she was scared shitless of needles. So I do so, and a few people laughed. Some staff was staring at us (school is hellbent on avoiding relationships), and didn’t say anything. That brief 2 minutes was probably the highlight of this year. She got embarassed afterwards, 'cause of the people laughing and smirking. I will get their names tomorrow, and I will terminate them the following day.
We were walking home one day, and she asked me if I’d like to exchange phonenumbers. I’m amazed. I say yes, but she will ask permission from her parents (which eventually was yes). I told her I will be a counsellor at the summer program* this year, and she will be coming there. So, we can like, be together and shit. I then asked her if she’d like to go to some movies with me (probably the first move I’ve really made), and she accepted.
Now I’m getting somewhere. But I still have to face the stress of actually telling her my feelings. Any hints? Comments?
*The summer program is really just a ‘camp’ at my school. We go there same time school would start, and leave about the same time school would end, on a daily basis. They get staff to bring us swimming, among other places such as museums and shit. They asked me if I’d like to be a counsellor, and I said yes, as long as the time would count towards my community hours, and they agreed.