Teenage Angst Rant Ahead:
I have just realized today that I don’t like my school friends It just occured to me after the hundreth time that people like to walk on me and see me as odd and that I’m easy to take advantage of. See now, that’s not the case, I just like being friendly to people, especially my friends in hopes they will remember things I do for them later on down the road. Yeah I know it’s selfish to think that way, but I really don’t mind doing things for people that I’m close with. But well I never really learn my lesson since these “friends” of mine don’t remember things I do for them so I guess they take me for granted and see me as a loose sort of piece of the puzzle.
Most of my school friends are also quite immature and have taken a liking to cracking penis and sexual jokes which annoy the hell out of me. I don’t find the word “vagina” or “penis” funny anymore. Do you guys? I’m guessing no. Not all of my friends are socially inept retards like this though…I enjoy their company but I just can’t stand to be around them anymore. They basically use me and then flaunt it in my face when they don’t want to do anymore for <i>me</i>. I don’t ask for much but today I was like “Hey will you walk up to this place with me to get some lunch?” and the replies I got were “Naaah…I aint moving” “No, I don’t really want to” Well fuck you too!:fungah: I haven’t even gotten money back that I’m owed. And I know I’m hating on my friends and you’re probably thinking “Well you sound like quite a bitch yourself” and yeah that may be the case but I’m also quite shy and I don’t really stand up for myself. See, this is what I found out I need to do today.
They way I see it is, keep hanging around really childish friends who sit in the hallways everyday watching them play numerous rounds of Asshole (or dry humping with their sig. others against the lockers) or go off by myself, and do what I want to do. Which isnt much. You get branded as a loner here if you’re seen with no other people a lot, but I’d rather look like a loner than humiliate myself with a bunch of kids who are extremely sexually frustrated and who need to grow up.
Anyone else here who can relate? Or who think their school friends suck too? And no, my school friends aren’t the only ones I have, just so you know. I’m not that pathetic, but I’m just really steaming right now. I can’t wait to high tail it out of high school.