In case you haven’t noticed, it’s been a long, LONG time since I updated…anything. There are half-finished chapters for all my stuff on my hard drive, there’s a billion ideas flowing through my head, I even have two retrospectives in pre-production, but… I can’t write anymore. It’s finally happened. I’ve burnt out.
For one thing, I lack the massive quantities of free time and energy I once had. I’m out of school, which means that ugly little thing called “work.” And lately, I’ve been cut back so much I can barely make ends meet. So, between doing eight hours of work in four, and trying to find a better job elsewhere, I’ve pretty much used up all my energy. Throw in regular household duties, my new cat dying at less than a year old (of a blood clot, no less), and my inability to concentrate, and I just don’t have the time and focus.
Also, there’s the site. Really, I just…feel like walking away at times. There’s nobody here, there’s no way to revive the bastard, the wiki is a flop, and things have grown bitter and tense. Gone are the days we were but young, blissful nerds, planning our futures as game designers and world conquerors. Now, we’re a bunch of grown, cynical bastards, crushed and molded by society into passive-aggressive lumps.
So… I might hit my groove again, but I’m note sure of the future right now. I still want to write; I had RPGC Task Force plotted out until at least Issue 50, the Final Saga must end, Absolution is probably my proudest accomplishment so far, and there are so many other things waiting to be put down. Only time will tell.
And now, for your enjoyment, a scene from “A Funny Thing Happened On The Way To The Forum:”