I’ve better admit it to myself: I have a problem writing lately.
It’s not that I don’t enjoy writing anymore, it’s still one of my favorite hobbies.
It isn’t that I don’t get ideas, I still do it all the time.
The problem seems to be with my mental endurance. I just get tired of writing, far more quickly than I used to.
Why? Not sure. I used to think it was due to the stress I occasionally get in my life; things like working overnight, babysitting, etc. That still happens (and unpredictably, which only pisses me off more.) But now, in addition to just getting writer’s block, I find myself unable to write a story for long. My head will actually hurt if I try! (Note that by “writing”, I mean “writing fiction”- other stuff, like articles and reviews, still flow easily. Weird, huh?)
I have a few theories: one is that it may be a side effect of the medicines I take for my epilepsy. I’ve been taking them for years without apparent effects (my own doctor seems surprised about that) so maybe they’re finally catching up on me?
Or it could be my eyesight. I have different problems on each eye; I got prescribed bifocals last year, but those gave me SUCH eyestrain I just went back to my regular glasses. Which I only wear when I’m away from the computer (I can’t see clearly up close with them.) It could be my headaches come from staring at the screen too long when one of my eyes isn’t focusing well? (I can see well up close, but that’s because my brain compensates for it- I might still be straining my right eye and not noticing.)
But those are questions I’ll have to deal with when I go to my next doctor’s appointment. The important thing is, what do I do about writing now?
I have left many -too many- stories unfinished, and that really bothers me. Even if it’s a common Fanfic problem, I still feel bad when I leave you people hanging. Especially when I write stories meant for the RPGC folks.
I’m going to do a little self-analysis of my writing process here. Feel free to jump ahead or grab some snacks.
Ok… I write on impulse, most of the time. I see something I like, I’ll probably get ideas about it. I actually carry a notepad with me, so I can write my ideas while they’re still fresh.
Next, I work at developing them. I ask myself, “What do I want to do with this? A story? An article? Or just an online post?” I usually end up writing a whole proposal on a sheet of paper.
Next comes research. For example, if I want to do a Final Fantasy story, I’ll go online (God bless the Internet!) and read about the game until I feel I know all the details I’ll need.
Then I sit down to write.
(No, all of this doesn’t happen at the same time, mind you. That’s why I note things down for. )
I either start from the beginning and just make things up along as I go (I don’t really like this, but sometimes it fits) OR just write down the plot, THEN I start filling more detail in until it becomes the full post/article/story/whatever it is intended to be.
Then I start correcting spellings, and rewriting the thing until I’m satisfied with it. (Yes, even my posts.) This is probably the most tiring part; I’m a perfectionist, I know it’s silly but I can’t help it. You have no idea how many times I’ve rewritten the chapters that I’ve posted here- that probably only helps me get tired faster.
OK, having established the process, and given the problems I now face, how do I adapt to them?
-The process for getting ideas and writing them down will likely stay the same.
-I think I should NEVER give myself any kind of deadline. That just adds stress. I really need to get used to the idea of starting something and then picking it up later. (This is why I admire Galloway so much: HOW does he keep juggling all those stories at the same time for so long?)
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I’ve found that TVTropes.com (along with Wikipedia) are great sources for ideas and research. The only problem is that often I get sidetracked reading stuff. Mental Note: STICK TO THE STUFF BEING RESEARCHED!
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When writing, should I go with the flow? It’s easier, but I don’t feel secure not plotting things ahead.
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Here’s the most controversial part: should I go ahead and post first drafts, instead of beating myself up over details? I mean, it isn’t like this is professional work. I can just fix errors or even change the material after posting it…
-Finally, should I write everything in single-chapter formats, in such a way that, if I feel I have the energy, I can add more to it later, or just leave it to stand alone as it is? For example, I still feel like writing about my composite All-The-FF-Games-In-One world, but instead of a big epic, just write short stories, with possible running plots on them?
What do you folks think? I can really use your feedback here. It’s certainly been encouraging the past.
Sorry if that was boring. I just needed to get it out of my system.