… but hey. I’d like to note that Crab Day sucks for ruining my timing on this. Because it really doesn’t seem to go with the rest.
As several of you have surmised, I’m not a woman. In fact, you’ve all seen the real me here, and as the rest of you have surmised, I am in fact Phoerret/Mark/a jackass. So I’ll answer some random stuff in my head.
Why did I do this?
This isn’t the first time I’ve paraded as a female on the 'nets, but it has been the longest contiuance when I have been at one place. I started on MSN and was actually spotted through real quick on a few times, so I guess that might’ve helped me make it a bit better.
So that doesn’t answer why, but I can tell you how it started for my masquerading at RPGC. I came here originally as RhykiEdge, and females were getting ops, so I said “hey, I’m a girl!” and voila (shut up, I don’t do accents) I was opped. They’re like “really?” and I’m like “yea, this is my brother’s screenname, I need a new one” which eventually became me being named Calabrena (a character/enemy from a game, think FFIV), which shortened to Cala, and it stuck. Fiero (he actually brought me to RPGC) could’ve just pretty much blown me away, but I don’t know if he was there at the time I became Cala.
So that’s how, but still not why. I’m not clear myself why I didn’t end it that day, maybe it was the attention I got. In school, I was more or less a nobody, but when I became Cala, suddenly I got attention and I think it became addictive (for those of you who remember when I got drunk… yea) for me. I think I continued it to see how long I could charade around as a female, and while several of you had doubts and probably “knew” (yea, I bet half of RPGC knew so shut up) I kept going. I think the fact I had no real male influence in my life really led more to me being more of a female in my head than of a male, and I always got along well with females because of this, so I learned a lot more about them than I did males. Yes, I can be crazy and all tuff and shit, but more often than not I’m just a shy kid who’s looking for attention (see the Rocky Horror thread made by Phoerret and the dress bit). I’ll do almost anything for attention. I crave it and I’ll take it any way I can.
Why say this now?
Part of it was the whole Val thing that just occurred, the other part being that it’s really starting to fall apart now. When I came on as myself, Cala stopped being here, and when I went to the chat, it was quickly noted about our IPs being the same. At that point, I’m sure several of you (Ori and TD being just a few) quickly put it together. Cala at that point had pretty much disappeared for whatever reasons I came up with, and Phoerret was here if I wasn’t playing Cronous. Figuring out that this would become public knowledge at some point, I decided to bring it out myself rather than have someone else say it.
So who am I?
I am a 16 year old male from Massachusetts named Mark. I have my permit and desperately want my license. I have 3 sisters and one dead brother, I go to a private school, I’m broke, and I want to move out. I’m a shy, quiet kid who doesn’t know what to say, and if I do, I don’t articulate it well at all. I’m an almost-honors student that’s too lazy to do anything. I teach people whenever I can. I don’t smoke or do drugs, but I do drink semi-often. I write short stories, poetry, read a lot, watch movies, play games, and not a whole lot else. My social life is laughable, I have almost no chance with any girls I know, and most of the guys I know pity me for my lack of dating skills. I’m a virgin who’s lucky to have made it to third base; I’m a kid who does stupid things to the people I do know. I am a bisexual and open to everyone who asks me about it, and I’m not going to hide it. I’m a deceptive and secretive person who can listen to anybody’s problems and help them sort stuff out. I have a horrible memory, a bad sense of direction, a worse hearing problem, horrendous eyesight, and my speech is barely understandable.
So now all of you know, and those of you who doubted can go “yay I knew” and for those of you who’ll be “I knew all along,” fuck you. You can be telling the truth or not, but I don’t care.
For those of you wondering, the original pictures came from Stuff Magazine, the last picture was of my older sister.
This will probably be my last post under this name in the Main Forum. I will finish any current RPs I’m in, but I won’t join any more.
I’ll still stay at RPGC, but I will use my real name and profile now from here on out.
And on a last - but not least - note, I am profoundly sorry to Manus Dei. I fooled you with so many others, but you became closer to me than any other person on these boards. I’ve thought about what this will do to you, and I sincerely hope you don’t become depressed over this. I am deeply sorry for decieving you and stringing you along like this, and I hope you can forgive me.
