I’ve been going through a really painful time in my life lately. The woman I love is insane. One night, she’ll say she loves me, we’ll hold each other close and make the most passionate love I’ve ever experienced… The following day, she’ll seem distant… And after that, she runs back to her abusive ex. She tells me I’m too clingy when I do nothing. Were not together, and I feel like she just uses me now.
I’m a shoulder to cry on when he upsets her, but only long enough to get her back on her feet so she can run back to him. We have amazing sex, the best ever, in fact… And when she is back in his arms she tells me that I’m stupid for attaching meaning to it, when it is HER screaming that she loves me in the middle of it…
Frankly I just want to know how to get over someone. She causes me too much stress to handle and I became scared of myself this evening when I actually started thinking about suicide and my options therein. The idea of killing myself and taking him out with me was very appealing, but I realized before I thought on it too much that it could never happen.
I’d appreciate serious responses with the intention of helping only. Last time I posted about a similar topic, half of you snapped back with “stop being a pussy” and that is not what I’m looking for. I’m looking for serious ideas and suggestions on how to overcome my desire to save her from herself.
Have you ever had one of those moments when you feel like the world is falling around you and you just want to run to someone and hold onto them? I have had that in my gut for a few weeks now and my problem is that the person I want to run into the arms of is the person causing my anxiety.
Help me out please, I’m just depressed and have no where to turn.