Strange, how one thing can provoke a seemingly endless train of thoughts. I saw a girl with cat ears on her head at school today, and somehow, I ended up thinking about what I want out of life. What I want to experience, where I want to go… and even how if I hadn’t wasted all my savings in middle school, I’d be able to do so much more. Maybe one day, before I’m trapped in the adult world of overtime, mortgages, and the kids’ soccer practice, I can.
Most of you don’t care where I am or where I’m going. That’s fine; I’d just like to shar some of my own hopes and dreams with those who do care, and perhaps inspire some enlightening conversation on this message board.
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[li]I want to participate in a mass-meeting of RPGCers. Sure, we have our ups and downs here, but I still love you guys. You really are the family I never had.
[/li][li]I want to take a cross-continental roadtrip. Ideally, I’d go down to California first, since it’s closest, then go east. From there, I’d go north into Canada, and head back west through there, south into Washington state, and back home. The purpose of this trip, other than seeing North America? To meet more of my online friends! Dur. 
[/li][li]I want to go to Japan. Yeah a fairly common one for a video game/anime nerd like myself. But seriously, I think I’d feel so comfortable there. It just… fits me. I don’t think I could live there, however. Too many people I’d leave behind. I just want to see the sights, hear the sounds, and, last but definately not least, experience the shopping. Gods, I want to shop in Japan.
[/li][li]I want to go to Europe, too. That seems fun. More people, too. ^^
[/li][li]I want to live on my own. “Well, DUH,” some of you might think. And I WILL live on my own someday (unlike my brother, more on that some other day), hopefully within the next 8 or 9 months. But I’m looking forward to it because, well, I want to make my own choices. About food, about TV, about anything would be great at this point. And I just can’t stand the way my dad runs the household. He’s just… not good at it. I’m tired of living with his awful choices.
[/li][li]I’d like to write a (good) fan fic someday. I’m so terrible at writing fiction, however, so that’s just a fantasy. :hahaha;
[/li][li]I want to own the soundtracks to games and movies with kick-ass music, and other kick-ass music, too. A small goal, but worthy nonetheless. If only I had money. ;;
[/li][li]I want to have a job that makes me happy, AND pays well. The one thing I don’t ever want to do is not be able to live comfortably. I don’t want to be in debt. But if I had to sacrafice my mental well-being in order to d oso, my life to that point will have had no meaning whatsoever.
[/li][li]I want to go to college, and get a degree. In what, I don’t know. A simple, common goal, yet one that I am still offtrack for. If anyone has wondered where I’ve been lately, I’ve been studying my arse off, trying to raise my grade-point average, so I can get INto college.
[/li][li]Having my own website would be cool, if I could think of a subject for one. Of course, I’d be willing to settle with being a staffer here (if only I knew a thing about any of the games that don’t have shrines already).
[/li][li]I wish I had some sort of artisitc talent. One that people can appreciate. I’m often told I do have a talent, hidden within me somewhere. I hate when things hide from me. >.>
[/li][li]As an adult, I want to have some friends in real life I can talk to and hang out with when I need a break. I hope this will be easier than it is now.
[/li][li]I want a male beagle named Spike. Anyone who reads “Peanuts” should know why. Spike kicks ass.
[/li][li]Of course, I want to get married to the love of my life. Don’t you think planning a wedding would be the most fun thing in the universe? :moogle: However, I wouldn’t get into that until my husband-to-be and I are both financially stable.
[/li][li]The one that’s furthest away: I think being a parent would be cool. Ideally, I think I’d want one girl and one boy, and maybe another of either sex. I’m going to name my eldest daughter Cyra. Hopefully by then though, I won’t be as terrified at the idea of me having kids. <.<
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What are some of your goals, dreams, etc.? You don’t have to list as many as I did-- hell, I didn’t even realize I had this many, and that’s just off the top of my head. @_@
Oh, and to anyone who actually bothered to read through the whole thing: Thanks. It means a lot to me. 
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end of Nessa’s longest post!
my dreams always consist of me in a room, covered in honey and donut sprinkles.