Hades: Fair enough, I suppose that most of the problems I have is my self-image. I’ve figured out that it’s the reason that I’m lonely, too- because I convince myself that I shouldn’t bother persuing any sort of relationship (friendship or otherwise) because the conclusion will be failure. I think that I end up sabotaging myself a lot in job interviews and in my own writing for the same reason. I don’t know about the engineering thing. I think I was more commenting on the doctor/engineer thing because when I was in high school, I was told that I could do anything. I had multiple aptitudes. But I slacked off in math and science because it wasn’t interesting (which is odd, because I find math and science interesting now). I just think that I destroyed so many opportunities for myself because of my idiotic slacking. But yeah, engineering students are pretty douchey.
Wil: I’m really glad that you strive for independence. I guess that’s a lot of the reason that this is grating on me, because I kinda like living alone, in one way. I miss living with other people, whether it was with my family or my ex, but I certainly DON’T miss other aspects of living with others (such as having to deal with movement of property, or someone eating your sandwich… mostly little things).
Curtis: I’m considering several different jobs in the DC area, some writing oriented and some not. I think that I’d be very good at any sort of editorial job. Hell, technical writing and copywriting wouldn’t kill me, either. Grad school isn’t really practical now, due to lack of funds, but group activities wouldn’t be out of it, I guess. I need to get in shape and quite possibly should join a writing group at some point, so there are a few things that I could do. I tend to write more when I’m pressured by a group than when I’m attempting to do things on my own, anyway. As for what my eventual goal is in writing… well… I’m selfish and egocentric. So naturally, I want to be remembered. I want to write at least one thing that will have me be remembered at least for a little bit beyond my lifetime, preferably much longer. I specifically want to be remembered for my writing because I believe that I have a lot to say. Of course, doesn’t everybody believe they have a lot to say? I wonder, sometimes.
Lex: Yeah. I do hear a LOT of people working at jobs that are way below their level. I somehow take it harder when it’s me, for some reason, even though I can understand it when it happens to other people. I guess that’s a little harsh.
Rigamorale: Actually, if it was JUST customer service I probably wouldn’t be nearly as bitter as I am. I hate trying to shoehorn sales into people that really don’t care about buying extra stuff. Hell, I’ve gotten written up for not selling to someone that clearly couldn’t afford a product. They didn’t even want the damned product, but apparently I didn’t push someone on SSDI hard enough for an extra $30 month charge. Asshats. I feel morally compromised working here, to be honest. I feel like I’m becoming spiritually bankrupt, and even a little less caring about other people than normally. There’s no shame in customer service, but there is shame in what I do.
zeppeline: Oh, no. I put my major’s name- “English Writing Arts.” I think it looks better on a resume than Creative Writing. I didn’t realize that I could put business courses in there, because I did take a few three credit business classes (business management and a general business course), but I don’t know how applicable they are for a resume. I was thinking of learning Spanish, because I kinda zoned out on THAT in high school due to lack of interest, and that would probably be in my best interest to go into. If that was the only course I was taking, I’m 100% certain I would ace it, because I’d focus all of my energy into it. That isn’t a bad idea at all. And you’re damned right about the whole feelgood myth. I was fed that bullshit ALL MY LIFE, “Oh, you can do whatever you like, man. Everything will turn out allright!” But that’s just a blatent lie just to inflate self-esteem, or whatever the Hell they’re calling it these days. Not everybody gets to be the President; somebody has to be cleaning the toilets. I’m just not going to be the toilet guy. And no offense meant to everyone else, because you were all helpful, but zepp hit the fucking nail on the head the whole post.